test test.. edited the layout le.. looks soo MUCH BETTA, my cousin's comp really CMI... -.-".. LOL, still no first haloscan post?? im disappointed...

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changed my blog skin after a painfully long hour search, im totally shacked out... finally found one skin that supports haloscan.. haha, lets see whose gonna snatch my haloscan 1st post, ROFL.

oh and erm.. tagboards for making noise lol!!

Horace, Out~!

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hmmmm, guess wat, im gonna post my aspirations here... lol, tats rare, considering i dun like to share my inner stuff out... i like to keep things to myself... well.. wat can i say.... I'm a person who is able to find the joy in anything out of the worst hardships given to me... mayb i haven met true hardship yet, but i believed i can endure and conquer it when it comes... in the last few years, i've changed subtly.... no one knows, not even my family or my closest frens... no one notices that i've changed.... only those who had endure hardship with me every week, those that trained me and trained with me with all their heart, knows and understood.

Mayb its a blessing in disguise for all the matters that happened in the past few years... mayb its fate, watever it is, i was always in the right place in the right time for it to happen, be it good or bad. and well.... i really have no place to share out my aspirations except thru this... coz no one realises the potential me, they only see one side and tot that's horace.. LOL. Wat i like to be, is really to find out the true balance in my life, the true balance in my shaolin life. Ppl think that im toking cock abt Shaolin. well, i cant be bothered anymore though, yeah i agree, i was toking cock...

i wanna b a big boss, i wanna b rich enuff to haf a good life... i wan to b in company of all my frens, not matter how big or small they r to me... i wanna be the best in Shaolin, i have to and wan to train super hard.. but... how to balance??? cases like this there's only one extreme, u ppl may say how come u toking cock, keep contradicting... but thats life, the ultimate is to find your own true answer in life in everything situation.

No one can stop me from doing wat i wan to do... this is my life, my decision, my own path to discovering who i am, what i am.... the philosophy has been imbued in me, etched into my heart... my trainings taught me many things, i've listen to stories every week, no one save a few knows the hard training i went thru, i've improved and changed beyond recognition, and i cant really maintain it... sad... yet, no ones knows that i have changed... no one can tell.... the devil in me haf alrdy been dealt with... i have a bigger devil to deal with now... how will i turn out, i wouldnt know, but i will nvr give up trying, learning, improving until one day, my true calling comes... den i'll say this is my life.... not a puppet of others..... >

TecciE, OUT~!
Rank is what you wear, Respect is what you earn!!
Unity, Discipline and Integrity

[quote]The Ultimate of Northern Shaolin is to find the balance in your life[/quote]

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haha had such a fun time ytd at GV yishun for our GV family day.. we watched Chicken Little and its hilarious!! lol, kinda lame as well... den after tat we walked ard marina sq and suntec, walked one whole day loh, so tired and sleepy...zzzzzz and oh erm, the New Ben & Jerry OUTLET IS SOOO GONNA B MY FAV SPOT!!!! LOL, and den Ivan and Kelvin went with me to PS Xbox to play games.... im soooo gonna thrash Ivan and win back all my $$$$!!!! LOL

thats all

Horace, out~!

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right, this is taken frm Tiong Peng's blog. this is prolly a sad familiar story we all know, my love life is kinda like this, but i sure wont want it to end the same way... but as the saying goes "Forcing will only bring misery"(Mian Qiang shi mei you xin fu), so let it be loh, as fate/time will show me the truth. SOme of you wont believe in fate/time, but only believe in hard work, if u really treasure ur loved ones, u will work hard in order to b 2gether.... but some things, esp feelings, no matter how hard u work, if the person haf no feelings for you, u'll nvr b 2gether.... if u really love the person, trust me, let the person go and u'll b v happy for ur loved one if he/she is also happy... i'm prolly gonna live a life of solitude(bet u guys DOnt Know =P), as i alrdy kinda know the direction my life will take... or mayb u guys may say my true love haven appear yet... i dunno... but i know for sure, love relationships means v little to me. i've loved and been loved. I've hurt and been hurt.. but still that one gal that memerise me,that one gal i realli like, will only b my fren. guess getting to see her will suffice for me ba... well guys, wat im trying to tell u ppl reading this, is to take every opportunity to hold onto ur loved one, but u always must let go if the person feels happier with another, forced relationship will nvr bring happiness, always learn to let go, its the hardest thing to do, and the hardest thing to learn... b happy for ur loved ones if their happy in another accompanionship.

The story goes like this:

10th grade
As I sat there in English class,
I FANTASIZED at the girl next to me.
She was my so called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was
mine.... ALL MINE
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it. After class,
she walked up to me and asked me for the notes
she had missed the day before and handed them
to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek.
I wanted to SLAP her,
I want her to know that I don't want to be just
friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why COS TTS ME.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end,
it was her.
She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her love had broke
her heart.YEA AND I TINK ITS ALL BULLSHIT
She asked me to come over because she didn't
want to be alone, so I ASKED HER TO FIND
ANOTHER DUMB DUDE... but well..
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was DEAD
After 2 hours, one JENNA JAMESON movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go to
sleep... yea.. FINALLY
She looked at me,
said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to SLAP her,... AGAIN
I want her to know that I don't want to be just
friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why. COS TTS ME

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick" she said;
he's not going to go well,
'ITS TT MY PROB?" I SAID..
BUT in 7th grade
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as "best friends". So we
did.,..BUT PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE
BROKEN
Prom night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step!
I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at
me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine,
but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it.
Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't
want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
COS,, YEA U NOE
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma.
I WANT HER
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried
WAT FOR I DUNNO
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and
said,
"you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss
on the cheek.
I want to PUNCH her TIS TIME, I want her to know
that I don't
want to be
A SECOND FIDDLE , I lSTARTED TO HATE HER
her but I'm just too sOFT, and I
don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the SATANIC church.
That girl is getting married now.
I watched her say "I do"
and drive off to her new life,
married to A MOTHER_FCCKER. I wanted her to
be mine,
but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it.
But before she drove away, she came to me and
said "you came!".
I SHOWED HER MIDDLE FINGER AND
.. YEA TIS TIME I WANNA SLAPPED HER AGAIN
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl
who used to be my "SLAP VICTIM".
At the service, they read a diary entry she had
wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
"I stare at him wishing he was mine,
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it.
I want to SLAP him,
I want him to know that I don't want to be just
friends,
I love him
but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
I wish he would JUS SLAP me!
I wish I did too...
I thought to my self, and I cried.
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U..."

Fcuk u
fcuk u
fcuk u
fcuk u
fcuk u
fcuk u

Teclis, OUT~!

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haha today was a boring day at work, nuthing much to do except surf surf and surf.... LOL, oh yeah, today is the first time i drove a BUGGY... its damn shiok loh lol, but the blardy brake is damn hard to step, must step super hard when u wanna jam brake or going down a steep slope.

haha and im like gonna take the test after today my first practice... lol, hope to b able to pass ba, haha.

hehe today when i reached home, i was like totally shacked out loh, juz slumped into my bed and doze off immediately, LOL... like a pig, wahahaha, today met my last new colleague Kavitha, she's tose super serious kind of lady tat only toks abt work... and although Jacintha and Rahimah says she's those super quiet kind but i dun really think so, she also go crap with me, LOL, mayb not with them lah, LOL, k le lah, thats all for today, BYYYEEE

Horace OUT~!

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haha, here i am blogging when i shld b at work, Sunday at the botanic gardens with no ongoing events are BORING!!!! i started work yesterday where i was like late for 15 mins coz i tot there was a shuttle bus during weekends for staff.... zzzzzz den i got panic when im supposed to start work at 8am, but 7.50 bus still not here, den i faster took Bus 7 and walk ALL THE WAY IN. By the time i reached the visitors centre, i was alrdy sweating like a pig.. -.-". Yesterday i meet my new colleagues, Jacintha and Rahimah, they're a fun loving and cheerful bunch. Really liked to work with them. Also, today is Jacintha's last day. So sad that i can only work with her for 2 days.... She's kinda wild and FUn-loving kind although she tries to mislead u by having a guai guai look and act guai. LOL Rahimah is also very wild and fun-loving. She always have that shag look on her face... dunno y, is it bcoz she not enuff slp or wat??? hmmm, oh and one more thing, Botanic Gardens got no ATM. SO imagine me starting my first day of work with NO $$$$$$!!!! OMG LOH!!!!!! i was like, WTH!!!! Special Thks to Jacintha for treating me lunch!!!! =D haha, oh and Rahimah drove me ard the garden on a buggy, haha, it was sooo nice loh, but its DAMN hot. Basically she nids me to be acquainted with the garden so tat i will not haf difficulty answering questions. Zzzzzz, den tml will b working with my Supervisor Jennifer and Kavitha, nvr see Kavitha b4 so zzzzzzz, hahaha, sianzzz loh, im sooo bored and my short-lived working relationship with Jacintha will be coming to an end today at 5.30pm. kinda sad when such things happen, but thats life i guesss, Best of Luck to u when ur in China working!!! oh and if ur reading this den when u come back, BUY BACK SOME SOVERNOIRS FOR ME HOR!!! lol, sooo thick skinned siah me... lol kks

Teclis, Out~!

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